Hi and a very good day.
It is 0231hours 13/12/2020. I can't sleep so I think that I want to write something.
The past 19 years, I'd been struggling to get into 'my dream' course. I worked hard to excel in every exam, every test and every interview but I made a mistake. A small mistake that give a huge impact in my life for now, my 21st years of life. The moment of I realized this thing, I decided to restart my life. Yes guys, we are able to restart our life! It is not that we are denying our past but we accept it and move on. Then, we tell ourselves that we want to be a new version of us. We're still us but we undergo process of improving our life in certain parts.
What I'm trying to do is I'm gonna change my intention of studying. Before this, I was work hard to get into my dream course but now, you're seeing the updated version of me. I was very struggle in this course because I was too relax as I already manage to save my spot in this course. Now, Hi new-version-of-momlittlegirl! I will work hard but not because to excel in my study but to gain His blessing, Lillahitaala. It looks simple but you have to realize this little word can affect your life thoroughly. I will keep telling myself that I learn Lillahitaala. After three years, I will come back to this post and let you guys now how this magic word change my life.
It is not all about your result, but the journey matter. I want to stay up and study every single day and prepare myself for every concern. I'm still young so my main concern for now is my ibadah, my study, my family, my friendship, my weight and my skin. Please momlittlegirl, you have to work hard to gain His blessings.
I also want to focus in my ibadah by reading mathsurat and do extra sunnah. I know and I believe to myself that I can do it.
I will update more after this.
lots of love,
momlittlegirl
